I wish that I had always lived my life as if I only had one life to live. In 1973 Secretariat set the track record at Churchill Downs winning the Kentucky Derby in a blistering time of 1:59 seconds. One minute and 59 seconds. In the amount of time that I spent my life living in complete darkness, powerless over my addiction, I could have enjoyed the Kentucky Derby 330,566 different times. . . .