In the words of Steve Jobs “You can’t connect the dots looking forward. You can only connect them looking backwards. So, you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something. Your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. Because believing in the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart.“
I wanted to start this post by apologizing to the 25-year-old me. I didn’t always realize that I have always been, and always will be in complete control of my own destiny. It was my own doubts and insecurities, excuses, and actions that continued to lead to my own shortcomings. It was the person standing in front of the mirror that was stopping myself from living out my own dreams. It is only now, 1,116 days that I have spent living in active recovery, more than 26,784 hours living my life on life’s terms that I realize anything is possible. I once viewed myself as a failure because I couldn’t connect my own dots. It is only now that I realize that the story that I was trying to write was not the story that was meant to be shared.
Today, on May 17th, almost three years to the date that I started my first ever career sober, I am saying goodbye. I’m saying goodbye to the job that taught me so much about myself. A job that provided me the means to travel the world, purchase my first home, dance at music festivals, and try new restaurants at my own leisurely pleasure. I gained a better understanding of not only what I wanted in life, but how I wanted to be viewed as a professional, and as a person. I hope that the story that will be shared will not be of my failures, shortcomings, or the times I didn’t have enough coffee in me. I hope that the stories that are shared will be of laughter, reminiscing about the only individual in the history of our company to successfully managed a territory from Uber rides. The professional that would convince a stranger to drop him off at my office because the TARC was running late. I hope they share stories of a person that persevered against all odds, and did it all while overcoming is own addiction issues.
I will forever and always be grateful for my three years spent with my fellow co-workers but what I learned the most over the past three years is the fact that humans in general are great people, willing to help, so long you’re willing to ask for what you need. It is for that very reasons that I can no longer be trapped inside of a cubical. I may not understand what a hashtag is, or how the internet truly works, but I understand that 3.4 billion people are online and only a tweet, email, or direct message away. I will forever be grateful for the three years that I spent servicing my clients, creating partnerships, and pushing myself farther than I ever thought was possible within my role, but I am ready to start a new chapter in my story.
I don’t yet know what the life of a digital nomad means me, but I am excited to find out. For the first time in my life I am excited to inspire others the way so many people have inspired me over the past three years. I am excited to create experiences, not regrets. I didn’t always understand that I had the choice to live the life that I do today. No matter if you struggle from alcoholism, narcotics, obesity, public speaking, heights, or just not comfortable within your own skin, I hope that you understand that you are not alone. Over the next 49 weeks I will continue my journey as I have 49 more states to visit. 49 more states that I can share my own personal story, my own struggles, triumphs, failures, and message that it is ok to live life authentic. I didn’t always believe that I would have a second opportunity to life, and for that, I choose to live!